Yes, I didn't quite make it. But that's ok. Some realizations today - completion and continuation can be a goal in and of itself. It isn't necessarily the result that is the only goal. The work, could also be the goal. Moving forward, effort, attempts. For instance, leaving laundry at the laundromat (hate that word) for 2 days because you were in too much of a funk to go back and pick it up....this perpetuates the same results. Now, coming home from work and immediately hopping on the bicycle for a long ride around City Park, in the dark, was GOOD! No doubt. The amount of pain that brought me to that place, as the bike is the one place where I don't feel any right now, is not good. But...this is a start. It's a late start, true, but remember.....I have those 2 months of muscle memory from earlier this year. It will come back a lot sooner that way, it will decrease, and it shouldn't take that long.
Interesting at 8, question on when does one's will end and yours begin? Along with 37 years of separation from all family, another reason to eschew 'religion'. Similarities in certain things, but again, another realization. In questioning why someone would keep in touch with a relative solely based on the fact that they're relatives, and not based on actually liking that person, or wanting to be around them. Actually, I think it was more pointed than that. That they were 'bad'. That was the intent, if not the actual words. But...remember....we are not all one, or the other. There is very little that is only one way, or only the other way. A big one, really. These 2, I'm proud of.
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